A Complex Surfvivor Adventure

I have recently developed a Lazy Panda Complex which entails sleeping a few minutes after taking a heavy meal...like conserving my energy and storing my fats in case food will be hard to come by in the next few days.  When I wake up, pick my nose and proceed with a DVD marathon of my fave series.

I know deep inside this is wrong.  I am gaining weight.  I can almost see meself morphing in front of the mirror.  It started out with a double chin, a flab of tummy lard and a self-confidence melt-down.  ‘I eat when I’m upset’ (Kung Fu Panda)...it can be consoling for a while but then I trudged into the murky waters of drug cocktails of L-Carnetine, green tea, Grade B Maple Syrup, lemon, cayenne pepper, Brazilian coffee, and laxative tea.  It was a big fail.

Clearly, the moment I embark on doing something with my weight, I already feel defeated, thus, the cheating and the disconnect from my weight loss program goal. 

Retreated and defeated...no one else can fix me but me!  I am now keeping my fingers crossed with the second round of everything and to make it more fun...I will go aboard my Surfvivor Adventure soon.

Let’s Go Sago!

Haphazard Purposeless Thoughts

Swimming in the teal water is something that I am completely happy doing. The risks, the fun, the outright stubbornness… everything all rolled into one wave. Taking a hiatus is an interval to the vicious cycle that I have been into for years. I broke hearts, injured mine, severed friendships, and trampled relationships all because I had to learn or maybe because I am simply being a jerk. Could be… right?

Presenting my Miseries… then kiss me goodbye and point me to the morrow.


To Try or Not to Try — trying to go out of relationships because of personal complications and filial piety. I couldn’t stop blaming myself. Maybe…I cannot love that much as I haven’t been loved that way. A justification? Naahhh! More of TRUTH…


100 Different Things — This is a relationship aftermath, not knowing where a slap or a kiss or a handshake would come from once you feel the tension of being virtually around each other almost all the time. And oh…one more thing, this could also be the point of origin for your next relationship… you would determine whether it will yield a positive or negative correlation. Yes, yes… it is creepy.


Stuck in the Moment — This may be more of hangin’ by the moment thing. Your breath suspended… system shocked, then shuts down. A process of licking your tightly stitched wounds or in a lateral point of view… both of you are happy, though deep inside you are engaged in a “Who-dies-miserable” game. Well, it does not necessary mean you wish ‘em ill.

Maybe this is like Newton’s law… you know, taking your emotions a level down or sometimes up, still, it almost always go down. Got it?